someone im not?!?!

I think i'm becoming someone who i wasn't used to be.. I haven't thought of this for a while.. back then, i used to assess myself once in awhile. People do change as time passes by.. i think i did.

i used to think many 'what if '. I am trying to explore different things most of the time. but still, i keep doing the things i got used to.. i am trying things that are ' out of my league.' maybe that way, i can fully understand how things will be for me out there.. hehe

My life is boring without them

I have so much in mind nowadays. Classes had started a few weeks ago.. For the past summer, I enjoyed every bit of my freetime doing stuff, and going somewhere else. I was able to see most of my friends and also met new ones.

Eversince my bestfriend transferred to another place, i wasn't able to tell her everything or most of the things i'm going through. I just text pr email her most of the time. In those days that I really need to talk to someone personally, I just turn to my friends here in my university now. But still, I miss hanging out with my best friend.

My highschool barkada is a big part of who I am now. I think it was through them that I learned most things now. I try to set dates and meetings for our gatherings most of the time. They even labelled me as the barkada's "travel manager." One time during our sembreak, some of us stayed at a house for a night.I realized then and there why we are friends. I agreed in the saying, "Birds of the same feathers, flock together." We really do have many things in common. I miss T.O.P.(Tyranny of pokisity - they named our barkada based on my band back then.. hehe)..

Back when i was in UST, I met wonderful people who eventually became my closest friends. It's like I've known them for a long time. I think it was the first time that I opened up myself to many people. Back in high school, I think only my bestfriends and some of T.O.P. only knew me well. When I found HDInc (I was the one who named our group inspired by HD + Monsters' Inc), I became open not only to myself but also to other people. I was able to socialize to more people. I really miss them.

My Mediartrix orgmates, Rotaract and ASSET family were the ones who became like a family more than an organization to me. I found great people. I even bonded with them during some of my free time. I joined activities and actually enjoyed because they are there. I found out that I can still find people of the same interest in other groups/ community other than my friends.

I don't know who to include more in this post, yet if you're one of the people I hang out with even just once, I assure you that I miss you in some way, some time..

Hmmm.. The weird part of this post is here. Even though that this post is about the people I miss, well the truth is, what is bothering me right now is the people I don't even know if I really miss.. They are just so damn.. uhg.. i don't even know how to describe them.. hmm.. ok. They are like mushroom(kabuti) that comes out from nowhere. uhg.. i just don't know if i miss them.